I'm not perfect. I've made tons of mistakes throughout my life that sometimes, when my emotions get the best of me, take me to a place where sorrow is my home. But when I think about these mistakes during those long sleepless nights where insomnia visits me , I realized that I don't regret any one of them. Every decision that I've made have brought me to where I am now. I love who I've become, even if the people around me don't.

I'm not perfect--I don't have the strength and bravery of superman. But I'm strong enough to escape this island of sorrow and fight for my happiness. Everyone has their own journey; this is mine. Take a resting stop and sit next to me. Let me tell you a story that just may be worth listening to.
May 30th
11:57 PM

a message from Anonymous


Didn't you say you alrdy bought a cute one from h&m?

Yeah, but Lucy said it’s too casual for the dinner. I’m keeping it as back up if I end up with no other dress.

12:08 AM

a message from giveemeareason


is it too big? I`ll ask my cousin for small. youu wantt ?

Yeah can you ask her and tell me what she says? I’m probably going to have to buy one if she says no. Thanks Hun(:

May 28th
12:48 AM

a message from giveemeareason


So like today was such a good day, i was gon wear one of the black dress i tried on. but i went looking and looking for it im like wth is it?! then i rmbred u took some... then i just realized where the hell are all of my casual dresses ... then im like omfg.. that girl seriously took like 5 dresses. man how many did you take? LOL. and whens your actual day of this event?

I took three LOLLLLLLLLLL. The dinner’s on the 8th. I really like the blue and white one where you can tie a bow, but my boobs can’t hold it up.

#ittybittytittyproblems 

May 23rd
11:30 PM

It’s finally my last AP tomorrow! AP Calculus AB and I am FREE from the stress of practically breathing physics, English, and math and having to ditch my social life(although nonexistent) to study. Sure, I still have SAT IIs, but the thought of knowing I survived through 4 of the biggest tests of junior year already makes the burden of SAT IIs less stressful. I can’t wait to see Joey on Friday, shop with my mama on Monday, and train next month for my internship. Summer is around the corner too, which also means that I’ll be a senior in the matter of months. It’s crazy how fast time goes by. Before I know it, I’m off to college and learning the joys and pains of being an adult. Now I sort of wish I don’t need to grow up and simply have my biggest responsibilities as tests and not bills. Well, I’m still excited to see where life is taking me in five years. I wonder how much I, my family, my friends, and the world will change by then.

Anywho, I’m off to sleep to wake up at 5 for the AP tomorrow. I’m super nervous because I didn’t get to cover a couple of units, but yet I’m super happy because I know after tomorrow, it’ll be back to the ol’ days. & there’s also the matter of SAT scores out tomorrow…yeah, not checking that until my mom forces me to LOL.

May 22nd
9:39 PM

OMGGGGGG THE GREAT GATSBY BY F. SCOTT FITZGERALD IS COMING OUT AS A MOVIE THIS CHRISTMAS!!!

I love the book so much, especially with all the help it provided me for my English Regents, SATs, AP English, and any other essay prompts that needed me to relate to literature. Fitzgerald was one of the most amazing writers of the 1920s, and on top of that, the time period of his novel is one of my favorites :D I know this book like the back of my hand at this point and I’ve even watched the 1974 movie adaption of it. Now, I’m super ecstatic that a newer movie adaption is made, especially since there’s actors Leonardo DiCaprio AND Tobey Maguire portraying Jay Gatsby and Nick Carraway. That just makes this movie 10x more awesome and me 10x more excited for the movie to come out :D

I can’t wait until it comes out!

May 18th
10:58 PM

I just finished watching grey’s anatomy season finale

& I am practically crying an ocean. Shonda Rhimes, why do you feel the need to make the endings 100x more dramatic than usual and make us wait until next season for the rest, leaving us to lick our wounds. And yes, I hated the way you ended Season 8. WHY WHY WHY MUST YOU END IT LIKE THIS?!

May 15th
11:05 PM

AP English exam tomorrow at 7:15 AM ):

I was going to wing the test and do it all without studying because I was sure I wasn’t going to pass. Even though I have the best AP English teacher in the school, the problem really lies with me. I can’t seem to coherently write my ideas in my mind without sounding like I’m in fifth grade. My thoughts changed, however, when I ran into my teacher after school in the hallway. He smiled at me with his I-know-you-will-get-a-five smile and said, “Good luck tomorrow, Helen.” At that moment, I felt super guilty for choosing to study for my AP Calculus exam next week instead of his AP that’s in two days. He has so much faith in me and all his other students, and with his record of having the most five-on-the-AP students in the school, I can’t simply fail him and get a one or two. I can’t just simply admit defeat when he has definitely taught me better. How can I look at myself in the future if I was to fail the AP and I knew I didn’t even attempt to study? I’ll be so ashamed of myself.

So now I’m attempting to somehow improve my writing skills overnight and actually sound like I’m a junior in high school. It’s not really getting anywhere, but hey, I try. 

Hopefully I kick ass on the AP tomorrow and walk out the classroom smiling. 

& on the bright side, after tomorrow’s AP, I will only have one AP, two SAT IIs, and two regents left before summer. (:

May 14th
9:15 PM

So I’m pretty sure I failed the AP with a one or two…

There goes college.

May 13th
11:59 PM
Ending the day with a happy picture of the EE cutie pies I spent today with studying in school. As boring as the study session sounds and as weird as straying the tech group feels, it was actually very amazing. I adore these cutie patooties (:

Ending the day with a happy picture of the EE cutie pies I spent today with studying in school. As boring as the study session sounds and as weird as straying the tech group feels, it was actually very amazing. I adore these cutie patooties (:

9:09 PM

I’m going to KICK ASS on the AP Physics B exam tomorrow, even if I still don’t understand half the units. FIVE, HERE I COME.

/indenial